Month: March 2009

Breaks are useless

HondaiMood: angry
Listening to: –
Eating: –
Reading: –
Working on: –
Browsing: –
Watching: –

-___-;; Today, my official first day of break, I woke up with a very bad mood. Well, I was in a good mood for awhile when we we’re eating but then my parents just had to ruin it.

While my mom and my dad are talking about work, I was sitting at my computer going “lalala~” coding a layout for True Magic’s update. My brain was sparkling with inspiration that I want to make more graphics! Then the next thing I know my dad ask me “Oh! You have no school this week right?” >.> I sense the situation… I know what’s coming… well, I had to answer honestly, “Yeah…” “Alright then!”… end of conversation.

I’m scheduled to work an extra 2 days, Monday and Tuesday of this week. So my REAL break starts on Wednesday. Then my break goes Tues, Thur, Fri, then I have work again on Sat. After Sat it’s crappy Sunday again (I hate Sundays). Then Monday, first day of Spring Quarter. Arg, What’s the point of this break anyway??? I rather not even have one because whenever I can expect a break, this is what I get. Work. It’s either school or work. I’ll be honest “I’m fricken tired god dammit!!!!!”

Stupid school, stupid work, stupid economy, stupid George Bush, stupid 24 hour system. Maybe I’ve been trying to hard about pleasing my parents. Pleasing my sister. Pleasing my friends offline who doesn’t even care. Doing my best at school. Offering work without complaining to my parents. Baring with my sister’s problems without complain to her about it. Hearing my mom complaining about everything in her life to me. I have enough of it. Of everything. I don’t want to do anything now. When my grades come out, I’m not going to hear my mom praising me for getting a 4.0 on Japanese but her asking me “What is it that you don’t understand?” for getting a 2.5. Like hell do you even know how hard I work to get that 2.5… that 80%.

This is not who I’m suppose to be…. Hoshiru became my ranting place with no stories of Joy. Oh actually, I have one. NEWS is coming out with a new single on April 29th! Yay~……….. koi no ABO…..is the name of the song………. -__- even with news on NEWS I’m not in a mood of going happy happy go go.|||||


Sick

HondaiMood: x_x
Listening to: Hoshi ni Negai wo – flumpool
Eating: -can’t eat-
Reading: –
Working on: –
Browsing: –
Watching: Clannad After Story

I’ve been sick. Very sick. I barely made it through my Japanese final presentation the other day. While presenting about the lovely regional Japanese food, I felt like I need to run to the restroom. I couldn’t bare to look at the picture of the food. I don’t even know why. In result, I’ve barely eaten anything for almost 3 days now. Surprisingly I ended up with a 30/30 for my presentation… Thank god.

Due to no classes yesterday, I decided to take a break and not think about any school related stuff. I tried to sleep but I kept getting strange nightmares… I was a little sunny yesterday, I wanted to take a walk but I could barely walk to the kitchen to get some water. .___. So then I ended up watching Clannad After Story, up to the lastest episode. I’m amazed on how far the story went into Nagisa and Tomoya’s life. I liked this story a lot! After watching Clannad, I remembered how much I use to love spending my time just watching… Anime.

After getting a peaceful 10 hours of sleep last night, I’m feeling a little better. I still feel a little dizzy sometimes though. And I’m still having problems eating. I just can’t seem to eat a meal! Aaaaaaa~~~ I just have to bare with 2 more finals. 2 more finals and I’m done for a whole month!!! Go Go!|||||