Mood: tired
Listening to: Hoshizora no shita de - SMAP
Drinking: -
Reading: Tania's Essay!
Working on: MLA format corrections
Browsing: Lang-8
Watching: -

Right now I'm at Cascadia (The college I take classes at) because I have a ton of work to finish. I'll be honest, I've been slacking off.

I got a new Yu Gi Oh! game the other day and I kept playing it! Not only that, I just... won't do my assignments. And the reason was just because "I don't feel like it". That's how I use to be in 8th and 9th grade (the maplestory era of my life) and I don't like that. So I'm here to make sure I do my work! But I still got distracted by this didn't I? Hahaha

Oh! I also got new boots~ I call them my "Tegoshi Boots" because they look like ones that Tegoshi wear often. Normal people would call them combat boots though. (I'm gunna stick with Tegoshi Boots though Muahahaha) Seems like Tegoshi like wearing boots... Ampy does too. Ampy talks about shoes too much. She can open a shoe shop with all the shoes she has under her bed. o3o;; I have a picture of my "Tegoshi Boots" on my phone. :D Maybe I should post it here when I get home. I love them! I feel like I can kick some butts when I wear them.

My friend Mei-chan said I was weird yesterday because we were talking about something. Then I kept saying "You know... that guy" when usually I would just go forward saying "Tegoshi that..! Tegoshi this...!" She was like "Wowo, (thats what she calls me) why are you being shy saying Tegoshi's name?". Well I don't know! I feel like I say "TEGOSHI" way tooooooooo much. Just try count how many times I said Tegoshi in this blog. I finally got the habit of stop talking about Athrun and SMAP to random people now I end up talking about Tegoshi. *punch self* idols, cool guys, good singers. How annoying!!!! The next thing you know I would start talking about Kamenashi of KAT-TUN?!? No Thanks! (I have nothing against Kame! Sorry Kame fans) *hides*

Oh! and on the same day I got my Tegoshi Boots I got new sneakers too. My sister said they look diva. Hahaha, my sister has been saying I dress like a diva lately. I guess it's sorta true but I don't look bad in that style. :D Plus... I don't look so "diva" wearing these "diva" stuff. Hahaha I haven't wore my diva sneakers anywhere yet though. I'll still make sure I take post a picture of them here though. :D

Anyway, break time is over. Back to homework! Bye Bee!!!

Mood: feeling down
Listening to: Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana - SMAP
Drinking: Hot water
Reading: Aishiteruze Baby (something like that)
Working on: WA 9 (ENG assignment)
Browsing: Deviant Art
Watching: Sekai no hate made itte Q!!

*sigh* I've been feeling down lately. Unlike the in the past this year I was so optimistic and happy. What happened to me? Why am I so down again. I really don't understand myself much lately. I feel like I'm crazy and sick (no perv sick) you know... It's like I have some sort of disorder.

I feel like I want to fly out the window and go to a place full of people and sun shine. A place where I can say "Heya!" to someone random and they would say "Hi!" back. A place where I can shout the loudest I can without someone telling me "Shhh the neighbers will get angry". A place where I can see strait away to the horizon. A place where I can run, run, run and run without being stoped by something. And when I get home, there would be someone there welcoming me home instead of staring at the computer screen. Better there would be someone who return home with me with a smile saying "Wasn't that a fun day?"

I guess you can say I'm lonely. But when I go to see my friends at highschool... it makes me feel even more lonely. They're all complaining about school and I'm here complaining about being lonely. Not so often I find school stuff over stressful. The stress usually goes away pretty quickly. But when it comes to people, it clings on to me too long.

It's hard to make friends with people at a community college because the age difference and we don't get to see each other much. I knew these two years would be lonely like this, I was ready for it. So I'll keep staying optimistic and love the rain for 2 years. After that this rain will stop and the rainbow will come. For that beautiful rainbow, I can wait. :)

Blogging at Hoshiru always cheer me up. Yes! Hoshiru can cheers me up better than you can Tegoshi! Talking about Tegoshi O___O I forgot it's his birthday!!! Ahhh ~ すみません、 私は日本語がうまく話せないんですでもがんばりました〜

お２１才誕生日おめでとうね手越君！^3^ 好きだよ。アメリカに２１才は大人です。だから、もしも今手越君はアメリカでいる　手越君はかっこい大人ですよ！ 私、手越君が好き。だから、手越君の幸せは私の幸せ。手越君の笑顔のままにお願いしますね。

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