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今年はあっという間に過ぎていく
This year is really going by in a blink of an eye. With that said, remembering things that happened before April actually feels like a life time ago. So much has been going on this year, it’s hard to keep track of what has changed since the last time I was on here. Social Life Ever since I ‘graduated’ from being a teacher, I felt very desperate to keep in touch with people. Especially those who are currently physically here with me. I didn’t want to lose the connects I’ve made with the wonderful people I met through my old job. I went to an Onsen for the first time…
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2 years in Japan
Can you believe it? It’s been over 2 years since I’ve been in Japan. The fact that I’ve been living here longer than I did in California is mind blowing. Thinking about it made me realized that being here during the pandemic has really put a paused to my life. Most of my time spent here in Japan is just me working and going home. I’ve had the privilege of visiting other places in Japan for work from time to time, but it still wasn’t much. In the past two years, I’ve been working as an ALT (Assistant Language Teacher). And I can tell you right now that it’s been…
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“Do you like rollercoasters?”
He asked me. I answered, “I like some rollercoasters and some I’m afraid of” Lately I’ve been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Is this one of the rollercoaster rides that I like or am afraid of? I can’t tell. The highs of the ride are amazing, and the lows are so dark and scary, I sometimes wonder if I can handle it any longer. Over winter break, I a friend of mine suggested that I should try meeting people since I’ve been single and ready to mingle for so long. I thought, Why not? And so I downloaded a matching app, thinking that maybe chatting with some people on…
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Wishing I could erase the past
The more I start to form romantic feelings for someone, the more pain I feel. I’m scared. I’m not sure if I’m ready to welcome anyone into my heart. The scars that I carry aren’t healed. The real question is, will they ever heal? These days when I think about the possibility of being in a relationship with someone, I’m terrified of what I would do. Will I be able to feel happy? Will I be able to trust? Will I be able to treat them right? Will they find out about my past? How much about it will I let them know? How much should I let them know?…