In 2022 I will

In 2022 I will…

1. be my true self around others.
   I’ll not beat around the bush or be agreeable to everything simply because I’m afraid of rejection. If I’m not a fan of something, I’ll say so without sounding like an ass of course. I don’t want to be the “I like everything you like because I want to be liked by you.” person anymore. We can like each other even more knowing that we can be honest around each other.
2. think before I buy.
   The collector mentality needs to stop. Why buy something simply because you feel obligated to? Why buy something if a part of it makes you angry? I will only buy things that will bring me joy.
3. study hard so I can pass JLPT N1.
   To be honest, I could careless if I pass N1 or not. What I actually want is to really level up my Japanese proficiency both for personal ad professional use. I’m sick and tired of feeling like a fraud because I have a hard time reading Japanese or that I can’t speak Japanese correctly in terms of grammatical accuracy.
4. keep in touch with family and friends.
   I want to do better to stay connected with my friends. It’s not easy and I did better in 2021. But I want to do even better this year. I want to get to the point where I can feel confident enough to say and feel like I am truly not alone. I want to prove to myself that I can be a better friend.
5. try harder to step out of my comfort zone.
   Whether it be for work, for personal reasons, I’ll try harder to step out of my comfort zone. Every time I do step out of my comfort zone, I literally am on the verge of hyperventilating because that’s just how nervous I get. Even after all is done, I repeat the event several times in my mind and just feel a huge huge huge sense of embarrassment. I know it won’t be easy to get past that but I want to be able to get used to it. Set my comfort zone bar higher, y’know?

Another year another vague set of resolutions. Let’s see how many I can keep.