So, I’m turning 25 on the 25th! I’m not too sure how I feel about being on the dead center of mid 20’s. So far my life in my 20’s has been me dealing with situations and emotions that I’ve never had to deal with before. To think I’m at my /supposedly/ prime for physical fitness and apparence.. maybe I should take better care of myself. Eat more healthy, walk more, move more, stand more, and simply live more. I used to be afraid of reaching my 30’s but now I don’t feel so afraid anymore. Age is nothing but a number and I am fortunate enough to live in the US where there are less discrimination against gender and age than other countries. Keyword: less. I know there’s still discrimination against women out there in our country and I appriciate everyone who are taking action on that but don’t forget to also appriciate how much we’ve accomplished so far.
Back to my point, I’ve been so foolish in my early 20’s. I feel like I spent most of my time trying to impress people. Some changes were good, some changes made me cringe. Well, to be fair, 5 years from now I’d probably read these posts and cringe at myself again thinking “you think you have it all”. I’m probably a hypocrit though since I still have feelings of jealousy floating around me. As long as jealousy is there, it’s the living proof that I still compare myself to others and think that I’m not good enough for god who knows what. I really want to put that part an end to that part of me.
One thing I learned about myself so far is that I make the most progress when I compromise with myself. That’s why now when I set goals I start with baby steps so I don’t feel discourage. This means things get done very slowly but at least something does get done right?