Mood:Sleep but excited
Listening to: With love - Kana
Drinking: Water!
Reading: -
Working on: CP paper
Browsing: -
Watching: Cardcaptor Sakura

When was the last time I was proud of myself? Hmm, like real proud? I don't even know. I remember last year I was proud of myself for writing a Japanese log everyday for 1 month. I was proud of myself for working for my dad with no complains all winter break. I was proud for doing the best of my best in my ECON class. Then came the loneliness of 2009. I ended up giving up when spring break started. But I really liked the me before that. Where did she go? Where is she now? What was it and who was it that made her so happy all the time?

I've been wondering about what happened to me this year. I've done nothing productive. I've done nothing that made me proud of myself. I just simply don't like the way I am now. Let's just say... I feel uncool :/ I'm pretty sure you (who read my blogs often) guys remember how sad and lonely I've become around the beginning of the year. Now I'm just pathetic.

I want to go back to the way I was, yet even better. The Hondai who was strong, hard working, confident yet at the same time, the Hondai who wasn't lonely. Let's see what I can do. I can do it! Yes! Yes!

Mood:Sleep but excited
Listening to: Moment - Amp&Hondai
Drinking: Water!
Reading: Meitantei Conan
Working on: -
Browsing: -
Watching: Soot saneha, Thai Drama <333

Oh my goodness! Where to start! O_O I got a new laptop, yes, finanlly!! I'm done with that 6 years old computer. My dad got me a Dell, Vostro. It's kinda small but it's nice. :D I'm trying to get use to using such a small screen HAHAHA. But man, after using that old computer for so long I feel a little sad leaving it.

I loved my huge screen. I loved how I was right next to the dining table. I loved how I couldn't move it around and I didn't have too much freedom using the computer. Freedom, comes with responsibility! I'm not much of a responsible person you know? I spend my time playing games while I should be studying and all.

... honestly, I have something to complain about. -_- I hope my sister doesn't mind this. I can't stand how she laughs and types so loud when she uses the computer! Especially when I'm trying to sleep! I don't need my mind wondering off thinking of what she's laughing about, it just bugs me so much. Especially when we got my dad's old laptop and she now plays maple story in the bedroom... She would stay up late playing that game while I'm trying to sleep. When I tell her I can't sleep because she's up, all she does is "sorry" -turns down the music- and turn off some lights. .... I can't get a good night sleep like this...

Wow, I went off in a tangent. O_o Sorry about that! But that's just something I'm so frustrated about. I've told her so many times and all she says is "dude, I'm so sorry" but she never fixes her habits. I feel like she doesn't mean it anymore....

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