He asked me. I answered, “I like some rollercoasters and some I’m afraid of” Lately I’ve been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Is this one of the rollercoaster rides that I like or am afraid of? I can’t tell. The highs of the ride are amazing, and the lows are so dark and scary, I sometimes wonder if I can handle it any longer. Over winter break, I got tired of agonizing over a crush that I know wouldn’t work out. I thought that the only way to fight fire is with fire, so I downloaded a matching app, thinking that maybe chatting with some people on there would…

The more I start to form romantic feelings for someone, the more pain I feel. I’m scared. I’m not sure if I’m ready to welcome anyone into my heart. The scars that I carry aren’t healed. The real question is, will they ever heal? These days when I think about the possibility of being in a relationship with someone, I’m terrified of what I would do. Will I be able to feel happy? Will I be able to trust? Will I be able to treat them right? Will they find out about my past? How much about it will I let them know? How much should I let them know?…

There’s so much I want to tell you but I don’t know where to start. Hmm… How about we start with this question, what is love? If you try to look it up, I think you’ll get a lot of answers. I think I finally realize that the word ‘love’ is similar to the word ‘important’. Although we all know what it means, it’s still different for all of us. So, how many times have you fallen in love? I think for me it’s twice. The first time I fell in love, I was 19. From the very first time we met, it felt like we’ve known each other for…