So several years ago in my college days I made a video of my speaking Thai talking about how I wish I have the opportunity to speak it more because I felt like I was losing connection to my heritage.
Although there were a lot of misunderstanding that sprouted from the video, I did gain many fans from it as well: thus, accidental fame was born. I made several more videos after that because I realize I had viewers but after time has gone by, I realize that making youtube videos was extremely time consuming in a way I did not enjoy.
I am a very shy person. Holding a camera in front of me and saying things aloud just makes me feel awkward. Not to mention I have to listen to myself repeatedly to cut/edit the videos. I wish I could just stop thinking about it. I know I could just not upload and disappear from the face of the earth but there are a lot of people out there who would love to see me update from time to time.
Maybe I should be honest with them that I don’t feel comfortable making videos anymore. I’m more of a writer than a speaker to begin with. Which is why my first first video on youtube was actually me saying “blogger trying to vlog”.
Vlogging is hard. It’s hard because I have to think about what people want to see rather than what I want to talk about. But when it comes to my blog, I just write what I feel and what I want to remember without having to worry whether or not someone would find my posts boring or not.
We’ll see how this goes.